Whats the Truth about Gods Will (for Me)?

God loves me, and I've come to realize that He has a purpose for me.

I want to talk about something personal: when I was young, I devoted my life to Christ. I knew that God was just in my thoughts throughout those years, and I know that he has already been my guiding light growing up.  


However, it wasn't until I became twenty-seven that I truly realized the truth about who He is — not only in my head, but in my heart as well. In my personal life, I was immortal, but I was living a double life by participating in religious activities while hiding my secret sins. My beliefs and behavior don't appear to align with what I claim to believe. Details might not be relevant but  you think about anything that a single guys would do?

One night when I woke up, I felt God's hand gripping my hands and refusing to let go. I was struggling with God, desiring to return to my comfortable, successful life. However, I was already clearly sinning in my heart. I thoughts that by doing good works the sins that I have committed can be replaced and restored just like that. And so I thought.  God rescued me from that circumstance and restored my understanding of His purpose for my life.

Everything has altered as a result. 

From Understanding God to Understanding His Heart
Growing up in the church, learning passages by heart, saying the verses out loud, being a nice to everyone, and listening to the elders' guidance was simple. 

I had faith in God's kindness. I thought he was good. But for a long time, I lived my life as usual in order to gain His love, to demonstrate my deservingness of it, and to be able to rest completely in His embrace.

But then things fell apart for a while. I doubted my value, my mission, and my position in this world. And I came upon a God who didn't bat an eyelid at my mess in that unvarnished, exposed place. A God who asked me to get close, not to be flawless.

"However, God shows us how much He loves us by sending Christ to die for us while we were still sinners." Romans 5:8

He loved me. Even in my imperfections, then. Even if I prioritized the world above His Word. Even when I was obstinate, self-centered, and preoccupied.

God never abandoned us.

Rather, He continued to bring me closer—with gentle reminders, unanticipated gifts, and grace that appeared in the tiniest things: a friend's prayer, a passage that struck the spot, a quiet whisper in the midst of a storm.

We serve a God who is incredibly patient, incredibly giving, and deeply involved.

A God Who Knew Your Name Before the universe was created, He knew every detail.

The very hairs on your head are numbered, in fact. You are more valuable than many sparrows, therefore don't be scared. Luke 12:7

Let it sink in: People know you. observed. cherished. And not only in a broad, generic sense. He is aware of your aspirations, challenges, and inquiries, and none of them frighten him.

He is not aloof. Here he is.

Three Questions That Keep Me Anchored While I Walk in God's Will
The love of God never wavers. However, it requires deliberate pursuit to walk in His will. I ask myself these three questions whenever I need direction or clarity:

1. Am I consistently walking with God?
Being loyal isn't always simple, let's face it. We are pulled in many different directions by life. However, being faithful is a daily decision. I've discovered how to establish routines, make reminders, and create an atmosphere that helps me stay focused on the important things. Even minor disciplines create room for significant change.

2. Do I have a sincere conversation with God?
Prayer is about being honest, not about using flowery language. genuine discussions. And He always answers when I approach Him with an open heart. I may not always get what I want, but I always get what I need. Try it: ask Him for peace, knowledge, and clarity. There, he will meet you.

3. Am I surrounded by virtuous people?
Our viewpoint is shaped by the voices we let into our life. ones that love Jesus, push me to develop, and remind me of God's promises when I forget are the ones I've come to rely on. Don't go it alone; get advice, connect with others, and maintain your moral foundation.

There is just faith—no formula.
Ultimately, understanding God's will isn't about following a detailed guide. It's a partnership. A trip. A journey of learning, development, fall, and return that lasts a lifetime.

And one thing never changes, no matter the season:

We adore you very much. Now. just like you are.

A Cordial Invitation
If you feel as though God is far away from you...
Is He still seeing you, if you've been wondering?
If you've been too preoccupied, too damaged, or too uncertain...

Remind yourself that he is waiting for you.
Not with censure, but with empathy.
It's with joy, not disappointment.

It's not necessary for you to be flawless. You really must come.

Return to the Father's Heart.
Here is a short prayer you can mutter wherever you are if you have never given your life to Jesus completely or if you wish to do so now:

"Lord Jesus, I am aware of my wanderings. But I want to go back today. I think you adore me. I entrust my life, my future, and my emotions to You. Show me how to follow Your will. Please help me to be near You every day. Amen.

Let’s Walk This Journey Together

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